Pride

Pride

It’s sneaky how it creeps into our lives. I had the thought pride was someone thinking that they were better than others and didn’t care about much about those around them. Pride comes in so many other ways. I would try so hard to not be that person that I lived in a lot of false humility which is funny because I was just being prideful in another way.

This morning I was sitting with the Lord talking to Him about things and I began to ask for forgiveness because I haven’t been a “good Christian”. I haven’t been spending time with Him like I should be and I kept going on and on about how I didn’t deserve to sit with Him. Then boom Pride popped into my head.

I was telling myself and God that I wasn’t worthy to be in His presence. You see I struggle with giving myself grace. I believe it is for everyone and that everyone is accepted by Papa but when it comes to me, I am the exception. This is pride my friends. I believe that when I mess up that I deserve to punish myself to where it’s hard to lift up my head. I feel my soul longing to spend time with Him and I feel Papa chasing me but I tell myself No because I don’t deserve it. WHO AM I TO SAY WHO IS WORTHY OR NOT? I AM NOT GOD but yet I was acting like it.

The truth is that I don’t deserve to sit in His presence but Papa says otherwise. He says come to me with His arms stretch out ready to embrace me. He says I am chosen and that I have a purpose on this earth. He says I love you and I died for you. His love for me is so overwhelming that I literally cannot put it into words.

Papa, I ask that you forgive me for my pride. Help me to have grace for myself. Help to strip away the pride. May I only hear your words and truth.

I know that I am not the only one who struggle with this. If you are struggling to bring yourself to the Lord because you’re “not good enough” please don’t let that lie prevent you from experiencing Papa’s love. Your past does not matter or where you are currently He wants YOU. So right now I rebuke that lie and I pray that they hear your truth.